Lyrics of 'Demons' by Young Merkules

I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret

What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
When there's nothin' left

'Cause I don't wanna feel shit, someone must've hit a kill switch
They don't ask about the problems that I deal with
Fuck all of this money you can have it I don't feel rich
I keep havin' these flashbacks I hate 'em
They remind me of my problems, I can't stand to face 'em
I know it's prolly my last to change 'em
But even if I do it my past can't erase it

They recognize me 'cause they see me on the internet
They think I owe 'em somethin' I can't deal with all the disrespect
Sick to my stomach, when I feel it I just disconnect
My demons tend get the best of me when I get depressed
I've been stabbed in the back with a chainsaw
But who am I to blame y'all, I'm smokin 'til the pain's gone
You see me smilin on the surface tryna stay strong
Actin' like I'm happy starts to feel like it's my day job
But just as long as there's a purpose to it all

I'll keep tourin workin' hard, writin verses to these songs
Far from perfect, every person has their flaws
And mine is I'm an addict still searchin for a cause
I know they judge me for mistakes that I've made
Since I've gained all this fame shit just ain't been the same
I came in the game to pave a lane for my name
And it's painful to say it put's restraints on my brain but

I know it's worth it 'cause I get to tell my story
I'm at a point where the industry can't ignore me
I never had the main stream media to endorse me
I did this all by me and myself and y'all are corny
To every kid that's listenin to this song
I hope you've found the message I've written within it all
If no one's ever there to pick you up when you fall
I promise you're not alone, play this shit and just hit the wall 'cause

I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret

I know you listenin' for somethin' to relate to
I know the feelin' like the whole world hates you
I know you wishin' you could finally have a breakthrough
You thought it was a phase so you pretend you're in a great mood
I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself
'Cause the person that you see is not like everybody else
So you try and you try but it never seems to help
So you're questionin' your words 'cause you're so fed up with the guilt
But

You're not the only one that's goin' through regret
You're not the only one that no one seems to get
You're not the only one that's so close to the edge
And if you slip it's over for you so you cope with it instead
I can promise you that nobody is perfect
And you overthink the little shit you're always so concerned with

So you lock yourself inside everynight and close the curtains
And you're screamin' out loud but it's like no one even heard it
I know problems keep pilin' up right in front of you
So much anxiety inside you don't know what to do
Been lied to so much you that you don't think you even want the truth
Fuck it, aww you grew to be used it, it ain't nothin' new

I been there too, just hold tight
A lot of substance abuse and long nights
But next time I see all my demons it's on sight
Next time I see all my demons it's on sight yeah

I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret