Lyrics of 'All About Me' by MAP

Looking at the broken mirror in my room I feel a tear
Fall down my face as I tumble apart
I am always on my own, I found some comfort all alone
But something hurts inside - my crippled heart
I thought that love would come for me
And I would finally be happy
But being a recluse is failing me
Everyone I have feelings for just laughs at me or just ignore
So I think I may have to say goodbye

I sit in my room in the dark away from all the public sparks
If I stay in here I might fade away
Then everyone will wonder why
They never got to say goodbye
The guilt will eat them up in heart and head
I only ever wanted love but I was stupid, it is tough
Just waiting for someone to want me too
I cannot make the effort now, crippled by my own self doubt
I wish someone was here to help me through

But in my head I'm having fun
And in my head I'm number one
Cos in my head I turn you on
But in real life I am just dumb

I'm fed up of people being so sad
Because they just got dumped, I've never felt affection
So be quiet
They say they all feel so let down
But I know love will come back round and make them happy
As I stand and wait
I'm told I'm sweet and funny too so why do I feel so blue?
Nothing I have ever done has worked
I know I'm going to die alone so shut the door
Cut off the phone - sympathy is something I'll live without

But in my head I'm having fun
And in my head I'm number one
Cos in my head I turn you on
But in real life I am just dumb

It's better to have loved and lost than to be like me
Devoid of anything, my heart only beats to bleed

I stay in bed throughout the day, I can't even masturbate
I've lost all sense of pleasure in my bones
The world outside is full of fun but I'm left out by everyone
I don't want them to feel I'm on my own
I miss the rain, I miss the stars and buttercups
Out where you are, but inside is the only place I'm safe
Outside there is no love for, people queue up to forget me
It's better if I hide and waste away

But in my head I'm having fun
And in my head I'm number one
Cos in my head I turn you on
But in real life I am just dumb

It's better to have loved and lost than to be like me
So just leave me alone as I die holding hands with insanity