Lyrics of 'Proud' by Have Nots

Well i've been brave, and i have been there for my friends,
And i've been enslaved by stupid shit that should have surely meant my end,
Prior convictions, while they will give me no reprieve,
I still try not to contradict things i've believed?

And sometimes when i wake, the morning light,
Shows me the things that i've done right,
Tells me i'll make it through the day,
Tells me i'll make it through the night?

So if my dad could see me now would he be proud,
That i've become the man i am, that i don't do just what's allowed,
That i mean every word i say to every face that's in this crowd,
So if you're listening, i'll play it loud?

And i've lashed out, just like an animal in pain,
And i've looked everywhere but me to point the blame,
And i've been selfish, and motivated by my fears,
And so impossible to deal with through the years?

And sometimes when i hear that sad old song,
It brings me right back to my wrongs,
It brings me right back to despair,
Right back to fuck it, i don't care,
But sometimes when i wake, the morning light,
Shows me the things that i've done right,
Tells me i'll make it through the day,
Tells me i'll make it through the night?

So if my dad could see me now would he be proud,
That i've become the man i am, that i don't do just what's allowed,
That i mean every word i say to every face that's in this crowd,
So if you're listening, i'll play it loud?

So if my dad could see me now would he be proud,
That i've become the man i am, that i don't do just what's allowed,
So just in case there is a heaven, and in case you're looking down,
In case you're listening, i'll play it loud,
In case you're listening, old man, i'll play it loud,
Yeah, i'll play it loud.