Lyrics of 'The Name of My Trauma Starts With "J"' by Raíssa Reis

Hi, Rae
How are you today?

I don't know

Is that thing again? What would you say to him? Let it go

I asked: Can I count on you? Remember that day?

You said for me: Sincerely, I don't know

I knew that I couldn't stay in your way

Then my mind, said you can finally let it go

Right there in the beginning you were awesome to me

Gave me everything I couldn't believe

But material gifts aren't love for me

I thought: I have a doubt with you, so I can't leave

In the first year, was so problematic

I held you and gave you the support I was emphatic

I started to feel things phsycosomatic

But when was me, you stood there, static

The name of my trauma starts with J

If you're the next, you have courage to stay

I wish you a really good luck to stay in that way

But now I left that burden blow away

You betrayed me twice, it was a huge pain

But you said: I'm having problems, I was out of me

I believed, like some manipulation in my brain

But it was getting clear in my mind, then I could see

I got worse, couldn't smile anymore

Depression took all over my soul

You stood in your stage, like before

You also took my energy like a ghoul

I tried to tell you about my condition

You turned to me and said: I don't understand

Also, I said about my depression

You said: Help you? I think I can't

And about helping me it was just a hug

You stood there just staring at the wall

You left me like I was in the dirt

But you never tried to help me at all

I felt him so far away from me, then I asked
Do you still want it? We can talk and I won't stay in your way
He said "I want it" but his phone showed me he wasn't into me anymore
He was lying and had no courage to say, coward!

I told about my insecurities to my friend

She listened and said everything is okay

Something said: She's not beside you, and in the end

You two were together, for the third time, a betray

Since we broke up, there was no trace

Didn't have the courage to talk about

Didn't have the courage to talk face-to-face

I just wanted it to end with, but you was out

The name of my trauma starts with J

If you're the next, you have courage to stay

I wish you a really good luck to stay in that way

But now I left that burden blow away