Lyrics of ' Coasting ' by Edges: A Song Cycle (Musical)

It's you again and I can think of nothing to say
You're beautiful, that's why I'm a new guy every day
I act like someone else
Like who you want me to be
I'm everyone but me

They say "Just be you, you don't need to try so hard"
OK, sure, that's true
But I can't let down my guard
Why can't I be the guy who is real
No bullshit ideal
Or layers to peel away
A wall goes up and all I think to say is

"Hello, hi, how are you?
You look great today"
And "Hey, what's new?"
And "That's so true"
And "Oh my god, no way"
"Hello, hi, how are you?"
Every line is staged
The same ordeal, don't think or feel
But seem like you're engaged

And on and on I rummage through my vault of used up sayings
But I'm praying I'll find something that has meaning at its core
'Cause really what's the point if we're just coasting on the surface?
We are capable of finding, saying, feeling so much more
But we're just coasting

Tight jeans, low cut shirt
A vintage bottle of wine
Toss hair, start to flirt
Relax, your ass looks fine
Tell stories, fill up space
Pretend to laugh at your flaws
Avoid the awkward pause

They say "Just be you, you don't need to try so hard"
OK, sure, that's true
But I can't let down my guard
And when my mouth starts to move
I get in this groove
Please someone approve of me

"Hello, hi, how are you?
You look great today"
And "Hey, what's new?"
And "That's so true"
And "Oh my god, no way"

"Hello, hi, how are you?"
Speak but never think
"Hah, hah, hah"
And "Blah, blah, blah"
And grab another drink

And on and on I rummage through my vault of used up sayings
But I'm praying I'll find something that has meaning at its core
'Cause really what's the point if we're just coasting on the surface?
We are capable of finding, saying, feeling so much more
But we're just coasting
Coasting

Why do I laugh at jokes that I don't get?
Why do I say things I know I'll regret?
Why do I care so much about my weight?
Why am I friends with people whom I hate?

Why do I cover up all my imperfections?
Why do I lie so much?
Why do I try so much?
Why am I afraid to make connections?

"Hello, hi, how are you?
You look great today"
And "Hey, what's new?"
And "That's so true"
And "Oh my god, no way"
"Hello, hi, how are you?"
Speak but never think
"Hah, hah, hah"
And "Blah, blah, blah"
And never stop to blink

And on and on I rummage through my vault of used up sayings
But I'm praying that I'll find some sort of substance and connect
'Cause really what's the point if we're just coasting on the surface?
If we take a moment we'll begin
To find and say and feel
We can discover something real
If we are willing to reflect
But we're just coasting
Coasting